ok la...

now..i not sure why..seem what i done this year is all wrong..i dunno..many people just misunderstand me..then what should i do?go lock myself in the room?i just have a hard time wondering why people see that...i am a play boy..just because i go out with frens?which happens to be girls?so..hang out with girls is wrong?ok la..is not that i dun wana find a girl that i can hang with her all the time...u guys/girls just expect i simply pick one and hang on to her is it?

i mean...ok...last time i have a gf u guys say that i dun have time for u all...that i only hang out with my gf..now that i have time..u all ask me why not yet find a gf..why hang out with so many girls..why dis and why that....?then what i suppose to do?lock myself and have me all by myself..go travel myself...go see movie myself..do everything myself..then u all will go easy with me is it?or not?

i very angry and fustrated plus sad...i almost cry in office today..and almost do before i go bathed myself and got more calm down..i mean..what is wrong with me?i go so call socialising..u guys pick on me...i go take photo myself u guys ask why i go alone..FYI..i go out with different people because they dun have time for me..is not that i dun wana date a particualar person...how i going to date people when people is working?how i going to date people when they are sitting for exam?and how the hell i going to date a person if she live hundreds of kilometers away from me?

well..ok la..maybe i was wrong..maybe i need to pick a particular person and when she is working or have function i just faithfully stay at home...thinking of her..is not like i never try this before...i mean..y cant i just enjoy my life and go met frens?is that a crime?why people just wana pick on me?

ok la..they say if u like a person u should not expect to be like in return..that is the power of love..but then..i need people that trust me...i need people that treat me as frens..i need people that have sometime for me..is that too much to ask?

well..i guess that i wont be enjoy my single life after all...i wonder if this is the reason some guys/girls wana stay single...cos after a while..people just get bored of u..and thye wont talk about u anymore..maybe i need few yrs?i think the best way will be..lock myself up..lock up my feelings..do everything alone...leave all my frens..then everything will be just plain and normal for me...

well..life sucks....