welll..now who is having the last laugh?

well..they always say that i be the first one to get married...now look..haha..i am the last la...well, i dunno if it is a good thing lo..i think i have few more years to look and learn about things?or perhaps enjoy myself?or i will become like GMK a..haha..need to xiang qing then only can married lo...well i think i am not that bad la...mayb i not met the right one lo...well..congrats lo..my frens...

haha...now i am dead wrong on that....:-)

well, i always think that i can read people mind and can know their character very fast de lo..think i am dead wrong with her la..haha...the last person expected to ask me out on some kind of activity lo..i once told my frens that i dun really have nice feelings on her lo..especially when we on company trip lo..she talk loud...make mindless chatting..and playful lo..i say something bad about her la..haha..which is kind of childish actually..haha..maybe i just not get use to being around with girl her age la..haha...

anyway, happy that she did ask me out lo..now that is refreshing lo..usually i am the one that make the first move de lo..i should have suspect something when she talk with Ms Teh on something..and TLY comment about it...well...i tot is gossip only la..haha...anyway, at least that she is comfortable with me lo...think morning breakfast did make some difference gua......

now, a colleague of mine comment that he envy me lo..about what i also dunno la..think is about i always able to ask girl out for activities.....haha...well, i mean,frens ma..right?i am not looking for something also la...i learn something actually, if u try too hard on something, it will never come to u,when u relax and take it slow, it will be easy..the first trick on go out with girl, never think of them as someone u wana chase..that, will make it easy..haha...think that he trying too hard liao de lo..is not a good sign when people comment that they are afraid of him..haha...think i better give him some help liao de lo^^

anyway...let's hope the activities is fun and nice..^^

Jungle Camping at Gunung Senyum/Jebak Puyuh(part 1)

Well..the trip almost not happen for various reason lo..first..all the chalet was full..then when i enquire the hall, they say is full but when we get there..nobody live there..haha...nevermind also lo..since we already decided on camping...

Well, YC did not pull out which did not come as a surprise..LowKS frens did pull out which was expected..and we all did have lots of fun lo..haha..

ok la..back on the trip, actually is and unknown place lo...last time the research trip was on Gunung Senyum, which is the other side of the jungle..Glad that GohMK and i made the decision to go for Jebak Puyuh..wise decision also...haha..we sure wana to take pic before we all get tired and look wana die in pic lo..well, also thing will get muddy very fast...better take nice pic...haha....


The road to the destination was very long..muddy and tired lo...well, since most of us rarely have exercise..is like that one lo...for most ppl that go run once a week, this is only kacang putih la..haha..for me a...i almost die liao...really miss the time when i was fit enough to cimb Mount KK lo..haiz...anyway, thankfully the weather was nice..eventhough is going to rain lo..i was carrying a 1 kg piece of metal on my shoulder lo...a bit regret that did not put it into good use de lo...too tired to take pics sometime..haha...anyway, waiting got GMK's pics to post it later lo...really nice one....

anyway...this is the bridge that we came across lo..very nice place to have a rest and refresh and take pic lo..anyway, got a person missing liao lo...walk too fast liao la...well..the hard part is coming lo..better take pic while our shoe is clean..haha...





now..this is one thing that u wont see in KL city lo..cute girl with a weird tree..haha..well, actually is not weird also la..since tree always finding the best spot for light to survive..anyway, YC is not ur average city girl lo..she travel alot..but is normal for girl la..is not normal for girl to go into the jungle..with leech and wild boars around...of cos everyone afraid of leech la..but then, she still go with us eventhough she know is camping and cant stay in chalet..is very much say about her lo...well, i dunno what about her that my ex-gf dun like..haha..think that have to do with jeolousy lo....


















interesting mushroom lo..haha...anyway..hope to have GMK pics 2moro lo...then shall continue..haha...nite nite my blog...

说好的幸福呢？

幸福， 真的是那么容易得到吗？不是每一个人都会幸福吧。。本来是很开心的。。但是，让我听到了这首歌。。听还没关系。。看了歌词。。真的很感伤。。很像是写她在那时，我对她说分手的感觉。。。

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一細數着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

我在想，是不是其实，我才是那个放不开的那个人。。每当我听到一些歌， 就会想起那时候的感伤，为什么要分开，为什么不能幸福。。我一直在想，如果我不知道什么叫爱情，我还可以谈恋爱吗？我的感情都没有好的结局， 是因为我不懂什么叫爱情吧。。爱就是要付出。。当你会计算对方对你的爱时，那表示你们俩已经不爱对方了。。这样合理吗？我真的不是一个好男生，总是把人家的幸福毁灭。。。。很讨厌这样的自己。。。有时想告诉自己，我把我的感情世界封闭， 那是不是会对我自己和他人好一点呢？但是，这样的话，那我就不是我了吧。。

今天，我的工作的朋友告诉我，他很羡慕我，因为我好像很能和女生谈得来。。他说很想要有个女朋友，我想，那是单纯的人会说的话吧。。爱情会很美丽，那时想象出来的吧，世界上没有很完美的爱情，有的话，那叫婚姻，不是爱情。。他没想到，朋友之间，会很多磨擦， 尤其是男女之间。。。那会比什么都伤得更痛。。一句错话，动作，误会，都会把你们完美的友情，变质，甚至好朋友，变成很陌生。soulmate became strangers..

那。。我们说好的幸福呢？其实，那是不存在的吧。。不论是，友情的，爱情的。。。那，只能在回忆吧。。当你找到很好谈的人时，一定要抱握你们在一起的时光，因为，那一天就是你俩的幸福，不会再有了。。。

religion intolerance in relationship

well..this is a new thing for me lo...i dunno if i am ignorant or what..i only think that religion was link to racial problem..apparently..it is not the case..especially in relationship..wonder why..do God (ok la..i not religious..i am free thinker but i refer is all la ok?dun ISAed me) teach us to be different?and only have a relationship with people in same religion?i doubt lo....

in Malaysia, we have both..well..i wont say anything about racial problem la..as it was already well known....

now..religion intolerance is a new thing to me lo..or should i say not...the first one i encounter is when i ask my fren..since she is like ultra conservative kind of christian...will she be accepting a bf that was not christian...she say can..but add a sentence that say eventually he will become christian also..well..i mean..isnt who u married to..u have to follow him meh?or at least..have both de lo..u cant force a person to convert unless he/she wanted to de ma..i tot only muslim need to be compulsary convert...but that is in law la..some christian is like..your partner will force u..i quite not understand lo..i will safely say that most christian wont do it..but...minority..and some i known o..is like that...

ok la..is not just christian lo..i personally know one fren that..her bf ask her to leave her religion, if not..mean that she don't love him..what kind of logic is this?to show her love..she have to abandon her believe?i dunno about people out there lo..but..it is not right...if she willingly will be fine..but u cannot say that kind of things lo...for the love of god..u say u love dis girl but u dun like her religion?arent u suppose to find out all her things before u accept her as your gf?it is your problem la..ok?

i mean...y reject people just because that your religion believe are not same de lo....that is a lame excuse..are u saying that all religion practice some kind of discrimination towards other ma?i really wonder y this will happen de lo...

final word la...use religion in relationship just sucks..and is dead wrong..ok?sien with those people..u should let people know in first place u are intolerance towards other religion..not force people to change after that...shit u lo..

约定。。。

今年发生了很多事情， 领悟到了一件事。。原来， 人生中，是没有所谓的约定。。因为，往往约定都不会实现。。对。。我和朋友们的约定都没有实现。。和 ex 的约定也没有实现。。不是说要永远在一起的吗？不是说要两个人在一起很久吗？

原来约定是我们在某一个时候说的客套话。。不会是真的。。最少。。朋友对我的约定。。我对ex-gf的约定都没有实现。。是不是人都是这样子的呢？还是我真的很有问题。。。。

我想，一个人，其实很好吧。。。

我知道了。。。。

原来我真的是不能自己一个人在家。。我会心情很低落。。因为都是选择一些会让自己伤心的东西来做。。还是打audition算了吧。。。那怪他们都说我有另一半是会比较快乐。。哈哈。。。

what the fuck....

ok la..excuse me for my bad words...but what can i say?

ok la..now we know what policemen is doing lo...they just wana sit inside air-con room..slacking while we pay thier salaries...their bonus..and their super efficient system that was being developed by non other that Malaysia supposely sworn enemy..ISRAEL..mother fucker..ok...u say about ketuanan melayu..then u pay ISRAEL biliions?then u shout that u are protector of muslim country..and u pay ISRAEL? shit mother fucker...

ok.. back to policemen....i know some policemen really doing their job de..unfortunately, all the top brass are giving police force a bad name...especially shit Syed Hamid...ok la..arrest me under ISA la..u botak SOB...i am waiting lo..this guy is a joke..i never ever see a home minister that are more clueless than him..more 'CLEAVER'.he is a bastard lo...never think what he say..u as a home minister..say police beat need to move out from chow kit cos it is danger to policemen?is a joke..stupid moron..then move to your house la..more safe is it?sien lo..he is making malaysia look like a clown country..i wonder y?if he make malaysia look bad then migrate then i can understand la..but this moron bastard say wana live in malaysia...haiz..and he have the balls to say hindraf is making malaysia looked bad?mother fucker..go rot in hell la...damn...u make malaysia look like lawless country lo..and u are the home minister...go die please...

erm....am i too obvious?

erm..my colleague told me today....i should go find a gf asap..i looked very happy and cheerful when i have a gf..well..is that bad huh? i cant recall that i revealing that on my face lo..mayb from my expression?erm...mayb is i try too hard to have someone in my life i end up lost my soul?i think so lol...

well, have to get myself up liao lo..have to get over that i am single already..have to learn to live my life myself lo...

think i will pull it off la..just given time....

每一次唱的卡拉ok的歌

有个人对我说，我唱的歌背后都是有故事的。。我想，是吗？其实不是背后有故事， 有很多是我想要有的感觉，但是从来都没有过。。真的很渴望。。。

少年（曹格/光良) - 看了他们的mv真的很有感觉。。很渴望可以有像mv的友情。。不论到那
里，那个时候，还是会在一起，聊天，聚餐，一起度过的日子，有一点很隐
隐作 痛的感觉，因为我从来没有好朋友，我不懂那感觉。。

只能抱着你（梁静茹/光良）- 当你最好的朋友，对爱情有问题是，她第一个就会想到你，想和你
说心中的话，就算你们俩见到面不说话，她也可以得到安慰，而你
其实喜欢她，但知道其实你们的友情就是那样，好朋友。。。永远
的不会变，你会为她的选择感到高兴，因为爱她，就是要让她得到
幸福，就算那另一半不是你。。。。其实，我知道只是mv里的画
面，真实生活是不会有的，因为，朋友有了另一半，就会忘了
我。。我只是她们人生中的过来人。。。

晴天（周杰伦）- 也是因为mv让我很喜欢这首歌。。让我有一股冲动想看‘不能说的秘密‘我本身
不喜欢看周杰伦的戏，但很多人说很好看。。我在想，是不是台湾的爱情都那
么的精彩。。那么的有感觉。。。为什么我的爱情从来就不是那样。。。是我
要求太高吗？我想，最后他们没有在一起吧。。最喜欢的一幕，是周杰伦大提
琴，过后 好。。我明年到台湾就来一个。。

童话（光良）- 第一个让我哭的mv..我第一次看到时，眼泪不停的流。。很感动的恋情。。。最
感动的part ‘你会记得我吗？。。会记很久吗？想到我的时候，一定要开心哦 ’看
到这一幕，我一定会哭。。为什么有些人想和他们爱的人在一起，却做不到，为
什么有一些人就那么轻易的放弃爱情。。是不是真爱都发生在痛苦之中呢？

第一次（光良）- 第一次在一起的感觉，是不是都是最珍贵的呢？紧张？开心？感动？

祝我生日快乐（温岚）- 自己过的生日，有点感伤，有点失落。。就好像我今年的生日。。

解脱（张惠妹）- 对，我们都要解脱。。要放得开。。那我们才会好好的过，人生，友情，爱情，要记得，还有很多爱我们的人，关心我们的人就在身边，虽然他们也许不在身边，可是他们对我们的关心，我们一定要知道。。。

everyone have his/her own agenda

Politics really can let you learn about some facts of life.The most striking similarity is that everyone will do something sometime according to their needs/ambition. In politics, we call it their aganda, in life, we call it 'My Way'.

People do things according to their thinking, without thinking of other's feelings, there are no such things as mutual respect, it is all out of the window when they wana to accomplish something. Or should i say, wana get something. There are no such things as boundary, as people always think that boundary is a imaginary things, and mine is always wider than yours. If i want, i can make it disappear, if i dun like u, i can overstep yours and draw a line to claim it as mine.

As it now, everyone is calling everyone bitch/SOB if the first impression u make on them is not good. Well, some people take pain to learn about each other, some just call u a bitch and slam the door infront of you..well, what confuse me is that, how do you know that the person is a bitch if u only have 5 minutes with her/him? That is the same answer i give when a girl decided that i should be love of her life when we barely know each other..i mean, how can u be involve with a person that you barely understand?

ok la, people always say, you should follow your feelings in whatever you wana do?WRONG..feelings will get you nowhere..u never know what is in other people mind, as they might have own agenda..maybe i was a bit harsh la, i should say is target..

my ex-gf told me that i just a plain loser when i told her that i decided to not having a relationship anymore...am i?well, i am sorry that i not take the breakup very lightly when we talk about it after 9 months..ok la, i accepted that i done wrong, and the blame is entirely mine, well, isnt bout time that we drop the subject?Well, i should have thank her as she did give me a lesson on it, but as i say it, i am sorry, end of story, goodbye..will it be she have an agenda?

ok la, i not sure about people out there, but i think, friendship is the most important things for me right now, maybe i havent take it seriously, maybe i always not around when someone needed me the most, maybe i was asking too much on out friendship...well, as i say, everyone have his/her agenda, in life...just hope that it will get us that far, and not short life like politics..haha...

yeah....finally i am a member of RPK website...

i always wana to be part of the revolution de lo..now i have the chance liao lo..haha...put myself in the line of fire and see if anyone will agree with my view or cut me into pieces de lo..^^

stupid me...

好人=傻佬。。是这样的啦。。当你不知道发生什么事时。。就是这样子的啦。。他们说 'forget the pass, and move to the future' 没有这么容易的啦。。那是为什么如果你对某一些事情， 或是某一个人，你不会忘记你们在一起的时候，那是为什么我们所谓的sweet memories..可能是我以为做了某一些事情，可以pay back my sins..well, is it just me or i take things to seriously?

其实我应该真的了解我自己需要什么，什么人对我好。。也许是我做错了一些事情，我想我应该珍惜我身边的朋友，不应该为了某一些事情而把他们遗忘了。。可能是我的表达方式真得很有问题。。。那是为什么我的朋友都不留在我的身边？。。真的要好好检讨了。。。

everyone is racist..

well..for someone who dunno it..yes.everyone is racist..just that when u in position to speak for people.u have to hide it and keep the feelings to yourself..alot of people hate each other...when the person u hate happens to be from other race..u are racist...which mean..u can only hate people from your own kind?that is simply bullshit de lo..

well, some comments about Sammy and Ahmad Ismail are true..both are racist, while Sammy is a little girl who only can speak for herself(in her blog), this moron Ahmad Ismail is a leader who speak from people..just like Najib who say he will bathed his keris with chinese blood, they speak in public forum and speaking to the masses...so is not hard to see who we will blame for the country become more racist..right?

which..is totally not true..u cannot blame those people who being reported as racist..racism begin at home..when i stay in penang last time, all chinese people there are racist..they keep calling names..say malay lazy..this and that...well, also to be fair to them la..malay people in penang also racist..then why we dun mention indian..becuase they are nothing?No, chinese and malay are racist because of economy..not because of people..when u control one thing and the other people control another...u will sometime cross the line, then all the thing u said and do will become racist..

It is the seed that planted for generation..parent who told the children not to trust chinese cos they are crooks...dun employ malay cos they are lazy..then how about indian?chinese will say they are close to indian..and why?because they are the minority..as simple as that..there is no such thing as religion appear to be same..that is also bullshit..

Racism have nothing to do with governement..it is ultimately that people, who make ourself racist..it just happen that this racist value we bring it inside the govrnment, and some clever people inside government wana to use it..

SO DUN BLAME OTHER PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY GOVERNMENT, IF U REALLY WANA BLAME SOMEBODY, BLAME YOUR FOREFATHERS..

Am i too political?

A net fren ask me, why i become more and more political?Am i? i i always am, just that i did not show it only la...since now more people aware what we are into..i guess is OK for me to be more vocal, right?

well, just read a article about hindraf people go to open house in PWTC..i mean..what is wrong for them to go open house?there are no chance that government people will ever listen to them, so they are doing things that they think will get some attention, and hopefully some sincere guys will try to talk senses into stupid morons in the 4 th floor lol...ok la...u have ut opinion, mayb malaysia is really cannot change with this action, but what else can we do?this is the only chance that we had, protest..marched..without the worry that they will straight lock u up in jail..we wana make ourself heard..is it wrong?wont it be better than just sit at home..and shout at tv that those moron make off with our taxes?

ok la...i guess protest is not really a good way..but it is the ONLY way for now la...if u have an opinion, just keep it to yourself..dun say what we done is wrong, we done what we do because we believe in something, we believe that we can change things..even if that will take times..we already give them 51 yrs..and u can see what they done..what we do is build up the momentum and oust them in next general election...if we dun do this...people will forget what happen..as in Malaysia..we all are like Dorry from Finding Nemo, we forget things very easily..and that is not what you want...so please..just SHUT THE FUCK UP....and thank me when the UMNO lick people shoe up..thanks...