A night with fellow frens..

Well..is a good outing....i always wana to join the protest anytime when they lock up raja petra..arrested teresa kok and sin-chew reporter that really make me angry liao...i mean..what the hell they do with ahmad ismail?take him to lunch while they serve
raja petra some dog foods?



It is my first street protest of my life..not expect so many people will come out de lo...my guess is only around few at most 100-150 lo..the numbers really jump to few thoudsand lo...malaysiakini put it as 2000..anyway is very nice..to my surprise..alot of youngster..some i think barely into their 20s come out to show their support..I do think that they come because of how they treat teresa and sin-chew reporter..many chinese people also..as the gathering organise by hindraf members..that is also a pleasent surprise..Some member of parlimen, Tian Chua and Ronnie Liu also join us...Also not forgetting MP of Serdang..although i not sure the black shirt girl was her or not..haha...we march from pasar seni..to dataran merdeka..as expected..the police had block the entrance to dataran merdeka...we try to go round masjid jamek..along the Star LRT track..and march towards Dataran merdeka...once in Dataran merdeka..that is where the crowd start build up lo...suprisingly the police was really light...i thougth that there will be road blocks and all that..that is y i park my car at kelana jaya..haha...


At the time..crowd become more vocal...traffic flow was distrub..and i seriously think that something will happen lol..haha...but did not see FRU people around..well..i think is nice that we protest in Ramadan lol....after some 15 min we gather in entrance of Dataran merdeka..we march towards pudu bus station..there is a very famous temple up the hill..

One thing good about joining them...is that u will have some sense of belonging..that Malaysia belong to Malaysian..when people from all races join in the rally..chatting with each other even they not known before..is a pleasent view...one that is truly malaysia..After 51 yrs of independent..the ordinary people like us know all to well that frenship, trust and sincerity will get us go very far..just that is some UMNO people bar Zaid Ibrahim know what we wana say..what we believe in..malaysia will be a better place for all....that is why people like us take ot the street..as it was the lats and only thing that we can do...really thank my sister bf for asking me to go..i really feel i done something for malaysia..even if it is just a small favour..but with all the hearts who attend the rally...we will change things...

yeah..that is what we wan..abolish ISA..fuck ISA...haha..peace guys..^^

Of Zaid Ibrahim....real life experience and a desperate girl...

so..all the hype on regime change is all just a thought only..it never happen on 16th and i really doubt it will happen soon..but then, as my daddy said...life will never be bored in malaysia again..although the price we pay was too high...

the saddest thing happen this week..Zaid Ibrahim force to resign..i never pay much attention to politics before 8 March..eventhough i know more than enough to talk craps to my frens on politics..was like the most knowledgeable technician in my company..haha..anyway..he is the first politician that really have my respect lo..that day after he resign..i search the web for any information on him..the reaction of ppl and the press conference..i remember my sister met up with his PA sometime ago, who told her Zaid wont last till september..that was after first month Zaid appointed the so call law minister..reformist was never welcome in UMNO..unless u are reformist to change malaysis into 'MALAY'sia..that is how they force Onn Bin Jaafar out ..and not forgetting Tunku.. very sien with those guys lo...some ppl from UMNO say Zaid was corrupted and into money politics..common la...who in UMNO is not into money politics?u give out project already is call money politics la...i can live with ppl who take money on the side ways...just dun do it openly like there is no law in the country la....

back to Zaid..listen to his press conference really make me heart broken..his voice is as disppointment as a minister can get...low tone..sad..frustrated..and bit of pissed off..haha..at least he is the one that walk the talk..not like some stupid MCA ppl..useless bastard lo.even ong tee keat is like a toothless tiger lo...if u cannot stand for your principle..u should just close shop and dun become a leader la...

well..now i know what my sister job scope are..helping people..go around police station..fight for women rights...we bring one of her case to Banting to met IO that day...after we sneak to her house...is heart breaking to see she have to leave her children behind...then i have to be alert on her abusive husband..have to drive like van diesel if we see him...haiz..why all guys like that one...if u wana break ppl hearts..y u wana married in the first place?but at leats if fun..and i will appreciate my sister more..she have her reason to do things..and i cannot blame her sometime..

Now..i think there really is different ppl with different priorities out there...but i never thought of some girl really have a habit to nail a guy with whatver means....and why i can so stupid to fall in her trap?mayb i just as desperate as her?to have a close fren that who always around...can chat alot...have nice dinner...and be funny and supportive?really kind of losing my confidence in gaining frenship...why i let my ex-gfs dictate my life?till i now dun even have a close fren at all...is there ever be a person that i can talk to?

i will be the last?

和couple出街原来都没有什么大不了的。。只是通常人家会成为我的电灯泡，今天我成为别人的电灯泡。。哈哈。。。应该说我是时候自己一个人过我的生活了。。没想到我是第一个在朋友中结交到女朋友，却是最后一个结婚的人，可能就是他们说的，好的开始，不一定会有完美的结束。。我现在都不知道终点在那里，只是一个人，做两个人应该做的事情。。应该说，我不会珍惜我身边爱我的人，我从来没有想过她是多爱我，我以为，她应该有一个可以无时无刻在她身边，心中只有她的男生，看来只是我自私的想法，放弃了她，让我知道一件事情，机会，不会一直都有，你错过了，就算你有了第二个，他不会是爱你的人，因为，这是对你的惩罚。。。

谢谢你对我的关心，虽然是很小段的‘不要想太多‘当我要开始心情低落时，你的一则短训，总是让我可以先得开一点。。很高兴你在这时候出现在我的生命中。。^^

ok..who give u permission to FUCK us?

very very sad and angry over dis few weeks..i mean..this stupid AHMAD ISMAIL..we already let u have what u want..u have a banglo..countless cars and a very high post in UMNO..how the hell that u come and accuse us as squatter race while we work hard for malaysia?har?i can liv with pendatang..as we are all pendatang..i cant live with u call us squatter race..i can liv with the fact u say it in permatang pauh..as it is a malay area and kampung some more..i cannot tolerate u say in national live television and FUCK us in public...we..the chinese..give u evrything..ok?when u wan fuck us is ok..but just leave us after u do that..ok?is it hard to ask?u already have ur one-nite-stand..u have ur pleasure...leave us alone..leave raja petra kamarudin alone..and leave the Tan Hoon Cheng alone..ok?

很多人都变了。。

不知道是人家变了，还是我自己没有适当的给他们空间呢？

有个朋友曾经对我说，‘我们现在每天这样sms对方，又常常一同出去，有一天你对我厌倦了，我会很伤心‘。。我何尝不是？也许我应该让她有一些空间吧。。但是又不知道她会怎么想。很想好象以前一样，每一天给她一个问候，想知道她忙不忙。。想问她有没有空见面等。。但是，又好像会烦到她。。。心情好复杂咯。。。

haha..

well...i know from the start de la..now in confirm that she only wanted mi as pet toy lo...good that i cut it off before things get more serious...well..dun blame mi lo..it is ur attitude also la...ok?peace girl...

生日快乐。。我对自己说。。

生日快乐。。我对我自己说。。原来生日的意义对我真的很重要。。我真的一点都没有察觉到，直到我一个人静下来，才觉得生日，是人生很重要的日子，人们对你的祝福，不论是客套话，还是真心祝福， 听了都会很开心。。也许是我对它敏感吧，还是因为我孤独的过，才会让我有这种感觉呢？最早的祝福，有一个是我猜得到的，另一个是我想不到的，在十二点时，对我说生日快乐。。我真的很开心，因为她还是记得我的生日，也许是比较好记吧，毕竟，我们只差那么的四天。。。我其实知道那是客套话，她也只是以朋友方式对我说生日快乐。。。就算是我自己的自作多情，我还是很开心。。

今年有好多朋友的祝福，我真得很开心，因为有她们的存在。。我才不至于，自己一个人的过。。。最少，就算我一个人，我可以感应到她们对我的祝福。。谢谢。。。

还有三十分钟就过了我的生日，我想，我以后都不会再有这种感觉了吧。。。明年的生日，我已经不会在期待了，我会当它是很普通的日子，就让我的泪，将它永远的送走吧。。生日快乐。。。我对我自己说。。。。。