52 liao..haha...

finally i got over 50 post on my blog...haha..wah..is a milestone le...as of it..this is the 52 blog entry..haha...well..bloging is what i wana do for a long long time liao...i do keep a secret diary last time..haha..well...not very asian right?

well, mostly is sad sad story between my 1st ex-gf and someone that i held very close to my hearts..

well, i dunno if i see the letters with penpal...what i will think..maybe will get sad again?haha..not a good idea to visit your past right?especially it is very tragic...well..i remember still one line from the past...' if you choose me than your gf..maybe all this things wont happens' erm..well..i will take it as the saddest moment..i cant believe that we both cry over the phone when we say this to each other...for what is worth...i am sorry....

random mood again...

wao...i just found out i know her for 287 days and 18 hours as of 7.28pm...so long liao a?..17 february i send her a wink on facebook...hope the date is correct lo...thinks is not long after i join facebook..i added her...always think that she is very interesting people around..the first real contact we had is after i ask her help on something...well..i dunno is this is really how i met people...always a..the communication between me and person i like..the cause will be from my ex-gf...not very good isn't it...i think relationship that started out because of something else will be bad...the worst case senario..she will be just a replacement for someone else...

think people say..one can look into other people face and tell it if they are falling in love..love is blind right?no matter how bad the person u with..u wont see it cos u only have her in mind..well, at least the feeling might last right?

well, easy to find out if the girl is the one u like.......

- whenever u see something u wan tell her first hand..whether she will reply u or not..is not matter..the only thing count is u wana share with her..then u are falling in love with her...

- when u work or doing something, she will somehow pop out in your mind..u are falling in love with her...

- when u saw her pic u will feel happi...u are falling in love with her....

- when the date with her...will be the only day that u really look forward to..u are falling in love with her...

- and whenever she say something she like, u will go find out and send to her...u are falling in love with her...

- when she somehow not reply to u on anything..and u feel very sad till wana cry..u are falling in love with her..

- and when the communication somehow breakdown due to some miss understanding...it will be the saddest time of your life..u are falling in love with her...

erm..well...something really need time to get over it..mine will be over soon..hopefully i find some strenght from somewhere..and let it be this year become happy christmas for me...

just wana say..merry christmas to you...

24 november - 30 november 2008.....

well..productive week again?i not so sure lo...is finally december liao...i can finally go on my trip to sg in 10 days time..should have a nice trip?hopefully lo..will be the first time i travel alone to oversea..well...singapore also oversea right?haha....

erm..getting know myself better this week..or at least i think so lo..first..i try to do things that i should not doing..or i not able to do la..always have clubbing thoughts..but then..i think i only like the music and have someone dance with me la..is not really go to club kind lo..second..i not so sure what happen...i been comment that i was like chubby version of jay chou and to my shock.i look cute?aiyo...ok la..maybe they say it cos wana me happy la..haha..but then..everyone love some compliment ma..right?haha..

erm..since GMK not around..maybe things get out of hand very easily lo..works is very messy..or should i say people wana take advantage cos he is not here..well, work is work la...in the end of the day, is settle the matters that really counts lo..

well..think might go back to my gym class..since yenney wanted to trasfer her membership to me..well..is like i told u so kind of situation la..if u wana work else where..then y u join in the first place?waste money only also la..since u dun really have time or put effort into it lo..well..actually is waste 2 person money lo..cos i only join since i wana accompany u...ok la..at least now it will help me also..haha...

erm..what else happens a...erm..ya..have a conversation with some people i like..or i should say have feelings with..that was nice..or at least i think is nice lo..cos she tell me something that i should have know lo..i always think that i will be at the right place in the right time for some people...but somehow or for some reason i miss out on her...maybe we not faithed to be together?or maybe this is for some other reason...well..as siew chen sister said..i cant save everyone..right?i think is a bad idea to be around some people also...cos for some reason or misunderstand our communication break down..will hurts us alot...i think that is what happenning lo...haiz...happy yet sad?complicated right?haha...

erm..finally play audition with yan yesterday..haha...i was so damn lousy on that liao lo..but is a good fun la...well, out thinking on song is the same pattern lo...i like aloha alot...really sweet and make u wana fall in love...yep..that is right lo..whenever dis song play, i will think of someone..haha...hopefully i will stay long enough beside my frens for long long time....

well...try to make news fren on photography lo..maybe i need to concentrate on that..since i pay alot for my camera...hopefully lead to something nice la...

well..is the time of the week i become a good son for my daddy liao....

ok..i will get on with it..haha..

well...really go on with planing liao lo...since mulu will be extremly expensive..haha..really have to settle with bako liao lo..erm..planing is not easy as it seem lo...with all the things...expenses..also have to present some very impressive things for people to see la..haha..if not..nobody will go with me one..right lyn?haha....

well,have to get one with something liao..start with something, maybe that is a bless that i have a 2 month salary pay to me in advance lo..just have my finger cross on the bonus lo..hope it is cos few months salary will be too much to handle so they pay in instalment la..haha..anyway, is good also cos i can finally clear my things more faster..let me be more organise,since i now have a heart to do it...better make it quick...lol..

i think i found out about something on myself..i definately is not a party animal..i try to be one..but i dun think so lo..i think once a while might do..now think of wana go club..is like..huh? i think of going to club a bit weird lo..haha..since i think i dun really have party frens la..haha...well, mayb i need to get on with something else gua...

well...then is either nature..or movies for me then lo..some lay back life la..maybe jazz club also lo..haha...hopefully my life will get on track liao lol...haha...^_^

haiya...;'(

why everyone just wana make a mess out of nothing..then ask me to go settle it for them de? what i get for that?big thank you?no..what they have in mind is that is what you suppose to do..cos u are my frens...WOW...thanks 'FRENS'....ok..i dun mind be a 'sweeper' or garbage people for you people out there once a while..keep giving me problem, then left me hang out there dry is not what i expected ok?i not asking u to be my best frens or do anything for me..i just wan some kind of gratitute from you guys..reply me whan i say hi..and not give me a one liner like i am someone u never talk to in real life...that sucks ok?for god sake..if u wana use people, dun be frens la...go hired one...ok?

ok la..party is more fun..ok?

finally have do something that i should have done a long time ago lo..partying with people that i was not familiar with lo..haha..love the music..love the fun..

facebook party is really a let down lo..i tot have activities there la..get all people involve..well, to be fair la...music is nice...sticker if fun..but beer is expensive and think many people left after a while lo..me and jane was waiting for some people show up..sadly both our people never come lo..spend an hour doing nothing there...take some pics and leave..haha...

well..plan to go asian heritage site lo..jane say mojo is nice..well..i never party out actually..the only club i frequent is thai bar..that is also few times only la..so i say go la...i think the most happening ppl to be with when club is indian and pujabi lo..they really enjoy the life in club..have problem playing around..haha....annie also told me the same thing la..anyway...plan was kind of off trail lo..we end up see madagascar2 lo..

well,did saw a scene that some ppl comment on youtube..haha...well..i guess is some kind of pick up line on girl?see the target..just go and say i like u...or..i want u..haha...is not that scary.come to think of it..many girls did like those things lo..they will kind of dun like u if u dun do those things la..is all about feelings i guess?isnt that true?haha..wana to tell lyn that moto moto was very cute la...but i save it this time..haha..

ok la..last stop..scarlet..haha..jane kind of mix up da club her fren in lo..haha..i always wana go scarlet de lo..but no chance cos no kaki lo..it was nice..kok leong and frens are lots of fun..the music is great..ppl are nice..cos club ma..everyone is enjoy la..keke..havent have much drinks for a long time liao lo...haha...

back home around 4am...haha..geng lo...everyone sleeping liao...post some complain on the facebook party..and hop to bed liao lo..haha..is a fun day..at least i done something different..haha..

random feelings...

boring till wana die liao lo..lately really dun have much strength, especially after work..think maybe Yc said was right la..once a guy reach a certain age..he will wan to find some sense of belonging..like get into expensive hobby...have a wife...have a gf...work his ass out..if not will become bored...no strenght to do anything..get moody...being down..i think i going thru those patch now lo..but what to do la...i just sit at home..stare on PC..hoping someone will talk to me out of the blue...but..rarely have de lo..i think is life la..when u hoping for something, it always will not happen, then when u dont, it is coming right at u..erm...maybe the thing is u really need to work on it...that is the only solution lo...

will, think that is why i make new year resolution gua..probably will be my rules for next year..then maybe i will be happy?just go out and get things done...

time for..new year resolution...haha...

erm..is november liao lo...6 weeks till next year liao lo...really need to settle it down while i can lo...well...hopefully i can do all these next yr lo...

-1. cut my debt by 85 %
-2. get a life..haha
-3. tell her i love her in the face...haha...
-4. travel..keke...
-5. diving...
-6. party on my birthday...
-7. nikkor 12-24mm..haha...
-8. GPS phone...
-9. Cut my fat by 30%....

well..is not hard right?

probably is what i need the most...^_^

erm..ya...is probably what i needed...frens that know who i am..for real lo..sometime is hard to say things when people dun have time or dun really know what u saying la..but then..i probably know that he will be the one comment on my blog lo..and really thank you on that lo..that was touching..
Maybe is something that i need to get me going lo..

ya..have to have confidence on myself..get myself going..and really have a go on what i think is right..if u fail..at least u try..i think that is true lo..the problem with me is largely that i too cautious..think too into the future..when things should be happen now..maybe i miss out some chance..or some kind of things...well..i always say that if it belongs to you..then it was yours...that is really some wrong approach on things lo...should i give it a go?at least i need to try la..

well...lost some win some la...i have life experience lo..or at least i think i have la...lots of events..be it good or bad...sweet or bitter...happy or sad...i guess that my life is really have something into it lo...i been thru some hard moments...that some ppl never experience before..i think i already very lucky liao lol....

well...work for now and future lo...

感觉与喜欢。。。

感觉和喜欢，其实就是差那么的一点吧。。。还是很多？对她有感觉，不一定是喜欢她吧， 喜欢她也不一定是有感觉吧。。不要把事情看得那么重， 那样会对自己好一点吧。。。

sentimental james bond..

Matthis : forgive her...forgive yourself...

Camille : i wish i can help you..but your prison is in your mind..

well, i dun really like james bond as a movie de lo..at least till 'The World Is Not Enough' but i like Casino Royale..and certainly like Quantum of Solace..Well, mayb is what give some clue on why james bond just like married and attached girl..The only girl he ever love..die because she love him..once the bracelet is on the floor..mean he have a closure on vespar..i almost feel my eye a bit wet when i hear dis 2 words..is like somehow i can relate to them..

Overall..is a very very nice movie..but also depends on what is ur feel when u go watch it...Casino Royale and Quantum of Solace is more on human side of story..the value that we can relate..on..what is love..u will give anything for love..and u will do whatever it takes..to find the answer..to prove that you are wrong..and she is right..well...as Matthis put it...'It takes alot to admit you are wrong'..isnt we all?

羡慕。。。

其实呢。。是很羡慕他们咯。。结婚了。。。是对爱情的见证吧。让大家看结婚照，其实就是最幸福的时候，因为可以得到大家的祝福吧。。 回家路途中，听着光良的约定， 想起一些回忆。。。还好吧，这次没像以前一样，可能是我放开了吧。。也许，我看得比较开了吧。。也可能是了解到，很多朋友，其实都很关心我，我不能每一次都让他们担心，虽然可能他们是以开玩笑的语气。。但我知道他们其实向我开心一点罢了。。我总算是过得很好了吧。。。就来到我们分手的一年了。。他们说六个月是十分手的过渡期，我没想到我的可是那么得久。。可能是我不太适应吧。。

没关系。。我也是时候出发了。。我的幸福一定回到来。。。

well...now that is very original...

erm..i always know dating her will be very fun and exciting...i was thinking about when sunday is coming for the whole week..haha..then is finally today lo..haha..wake up at 5.30am today..sleep back after download things and wake up at 7am...long time did not have shower that early de lo.....finally reach her place at 8.40 am de lo..slacking over there..haha...burnt a cd for the occasion lo..some nice nice song that she might can sing along..haha....after shower then only find i dun have nice clothes to wear lo..not that i very care about what i should wear la..but then..is a date la..so i at least have to be decent.......

well, i pick a movie that she probably cant really relate de lo..haha...saw the earliest show on 11am..think we both never come so early for a movie before...i can sure she never lol..

erm..the real highlight of the day is when we have lunch at cui shui restaurant at kepong lo..is very fun..we laugh like we havnt laugh in long time already..i discuss about some frens..which are almost like we talking non-stop on them de lo...then suddenly my food come out of my mouth and onto her shirt la...think is really what they say dun talk with food in your mouth de lol..very very embarrassing moment de lo...i try to understand her more..which i think i almost 40% on the way..at least i think i am la...well, we plan to chat more about my pass....it became like talk about her pass...which i glad...that make me more understand her needs?haha...well...i know many guys try to chase her lo..can feel one....at least i can try lo..or...^_^

is 6pm...we hit the road...sent her back home lo..guess what...i lost in kepong..AGAIN..haiz..hope is not the last time go out with her de lo....she is definately nice girl to be with la..^_^hopefully my feeling not wrong dis time lol...

erm..i am dead liao...

sie liao lo..i think i develope feeling for her....i am dead liao lo...well...people always said if u both hate each other at first, u both have a big posibility that will end up as couple de lo...damn...it is 99% true de lo..haha...erm..ok la..i misundertand her cos maybe i not in her shoe when i first met her lo..

think we more like play mates gua..our expression is like we know each other for sometime..and almost like a playful couple..haha...well, she did look very nice in pics..haha....

well, have ot give her credit also la...she is cute..lovely and fun to be with lo...but have to keep my feelings in check liao lo..dun wana hurt myself again..haha....

finally...raja petra got release...

fianlly, the judge do their job without fear or favour..judgement favour RPK and Anwar...well, i dun really care about anwar one lo..since i think he is a politician..i do care about the judgement on RPK...
that come of a suprise lo..since syed hamid hold him with ISA..is rare that they declare that the detention is unlawful, but then win some lose some la...at least RPK is out...and with his family now..i wonder is it some kind of bargain that struck with najib..cos they plan to call up RPK as witness in trial...but with RPK personality, i doubt a deal can be reach..haha...well, i trust RPK more than anyone lo..cos he is always never take side...the only side he is taking is the truth..he wont care less if u from same political spectrum as him..if u do a wrong things, that is what u get from him..haha...
well...if we only have more of RPK among the malays...what malaysia will become....

well, best wishes to RPK, we salute u and support u all the way....^^

bukit berembum...annual dinner + mini trip?

well, i will rate dis is the most boring trip i ever went lo...is half force one de lo..so in a way we have no choice also...well, dis will be the earliest time i reach office lo..is around 6.10am..haha..all the foreign worker is already there liao...think they dun wan KCL bang on them lo..haha...erm..a bit disappointed that cant be in the group with ASM de lo..o my god...dunno wat i get myself into..haha..
well...we all are half dead liao lo..most people wana sleep and..haiz..wondering what the hell i doing in office on 6am..haha...

see..take pics also wana slack around de lo...kekeke

now...let's move to the bus..haha...No 2

now..aint this the most exciting building around USJ...the district police station...is grand..and almost like the stupid Zakaria palace lo...is huge...have multi storey car park..glass windows..and a multi storey condominum at the back for officer 'HOSTEL'..i bet it come with astro, some 10 pcs of 42 inch LCD and most probably, the most expensve system that my company have to offer..haha...
now, dun get him wrong a..he is all fired up..for SLEEP...haha...

nice view..haha..

ok..dis is officially the lousiest breakfast i ever eat...no choice also la..haha...


tot we can have a feast....dis also cold cold food lol...haiz...

everyone is jamming the counter lo..dis is what u get when u have 100 people go out together on a trip..haha...


now after out breakfast, the real boring trip start...first stop, visit a mushroom growing factory in raub...this is BORING...haha....now, not that i have anything against people doing this business just i think that very..erm...not interesting lo..haha....

ya..big mushroom lo..i have no idea what it is call in english..haha..

nice growing

me with the mushroom....haha...


Now, this is the most cutest people around lo..bar ASM la..but since i cant in same group with her..then i as well take pics of this 2 cute puppies lo..haha...well, the trip to mushroom factory is not that erm...nice la...just look at how they do the things...we spend around 15 minutes there..after sit in bus for 2 -3 hours....i have no idea who organise this..i will kick his/her ass...


Second stop...kacang park...haha...

Mademe explain how it works....apperantly all this things are imported...haha

Kacang having their sun bath....




now, this is more interesting, mainly cos the boss is so enthusiast in explaning how it get done lo..ya..the taufu...apperantly..dis is also imported..perfected by malaysia people...haha...

now guys...this is how u make tau hue...

and this is how u make taufu...

Now...this is how u make ur taufu more nice..haha...



Finally...our last stop for the day, and the highlight of the day, up to bukit berembum waterfall with modified 4WD...well, is quite disappointing, as it was not as wild as youtube video suggested....i think probably the raining season have many things to do with it lo...alas...the waterfall still ok la...just, the water too dirty and too cold lo..haha...

Waterfall...

our ride...

driving people

Bugs...

mushroom again..only dis time..cannot eat one..haha..

Finally...dinner time..is only 5.30 pm..i think the whole trip is just eat eat and eat...we are like a trash can...stuck all the food inside...haiz..not very good planing lo..the trips just sucks...haha..hope next ur R & D people can come out with something more nice..haha...

Jungle Camping at Gunung Senyum/Jebak Puyuh(part 2)

erm..well..dis is overdue one lo..i should have write dis long time ago..haha..anyway, better late than never la....

well...as we travel to the jungle..we approaching our final destination of the day lo...is about 3.00pm in the afternoon..is already 2.5 hours since we make our way into the jungle..we almost wana give up already..since we have no idea..no guide to follow and no signal on HP..haha..the only thing we had on ur is the compass on GMK watch...well...we get lucky la...so we arrived around 3.15pm...finally..haha...the cave was huge..so to speak...

i think this is the hightlight of the trip lo..when we stand inside..we appear to be so insignificant...so small..this cave need to have a torch light only can go inside lo..it is so dark that u cannot see even ur fingers...the place seem to have habitat lol..can see some rot wood around the area...some kind of stair case..marble floor...







well..i am half dead by now lo..so all the pics will be taken by GMK..haha....

playing around with GMK as toy..haha...

trying to be mafia...inside the cave..haha...



















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well...we take our breakfast outside before venture into Gunung Senyum again...generally..is a nice trip lo....will be there again in near future..dis time we will be ready..haha...